Sometimes...

i wonder about things in my life... people in my life...
Sometimes i dont know if the world is getting weary of it's inhabitants or are we the ones who make life difficult...

I remember the conversations I've had with my fav uncle. Somehow, he and me, we both connect intellectually. Some days, he makes sense and other days I make sense. He's been there for me and he's been sensitive enough to allow me my space when I dont want that company. I do feel guilty shutting him out at times, but, I just need it for my own self preservation.

I've always wondered about myself so many times. I always seem to have that extra patience for people I really care for, but, at times I do wonder if I am being logically caring or insanely idiotic. It's really a thin line which you draw when it comes to people that you care about, whom does not share the same sentiments as you or as strongly as you. It's just a thin line.

I mean, how much and how long does it take to reply back that sms or email ? Nothing which is not a 'life and death' situation can be really that important 24/7 until you cannot even make that miniscule time for a friend. A friend which you had decided to accept their friendship within your life. What does it really say when you've reached that point really? Does it mean that I've lost my self respect as much as they have lost their respect for me as a person? Don't I deserve even that much from someone who is called a friend?

I guess this is the very reason why i have many mates but very few friends. I know many people but i wouldnt consider them a FRIEND. I believe having a friendship is also a type of responsibility you place upon yourself. It's sort of like marriage really... you are responsible in maintaining it to the best possible way which you can. Just like marriage, you have a duty to take care of the heart and feelings of a friend and do your best not to take them for granted or abuse this relationship. You need to havea lifelong respect for each other. To defend and honor them whenever necessary. To be consistent in that TLC. To give them a chance to redeem for their mistakes. To always remember that to err is human and to forgive when your heart is ready is certainly divine.

I guess sometimes... the way you see things is quite different than the way someone else sees it... it's just a Thin Line...