Blessed...

My life has been pretty rough the last couple of years... but thru it all, (the loss of family members, friendships and businesses), i've always tried my best to find new things to feel blessed about. And i have to say that despite some very trying moment, (moments where i just felt that being in a coma would have been better than living and witnessing all the pain and tragedies in my life), at the end of those days or moments, God has never failed me. What i've learnt from those days is that... no matter how tough or bad things are, something good will come along to brighten up your life.

Sometimes it is very necessary to let go of something and not hang on to sentimentalities which you find in a childhood friendship or a new found friendship, which of late just brings you down in the dumps. Because someone who knows you that long or that deep, would immediately know what would hurt you and what wouldnt hurt you. A childhood friend or a good friend, would make the best of friends or the worst enemies.

A good friend is measured by the strength of a friendship in good or bad times. Whether its a newly discovered friendship or an old one. When a good friend has turned into a toxic friend, it is okay to let go. Sometimes we get so caught up in the whirlwind of fun and adventure that we are blinded by the truth of the matter... I read a magazine recently and found these points to be very interesting. Sad to say that I could actually relate to it in the sense that some of the "good" friendships i thot i had, were the ones which were so bad for me.

The points which i could relate to were :

-A good friend won't get a kick out of telling you bad news... a good friend won't pretend that the hurtful news she is telling you nonchantly is something so blase!

-A good friend won't try to come between you and the man of your dreams, as soon as the chance is gone, she tries to get her hooks on the guy...

-A good friend won't try to rain on your parade. Being negative about things when you really need to hear something positive or get some good support.

-A good friend would never reveal things about you in the company of strangers. A good friend would protect you.

-A good friend won't try to embarrass you by telling the whole wide world about things you are going thru, no matter how minor it seems.

-A good friend would never try to steal your limelight away. They would never try to perform stunts just for the sake of attention or for ego boosting reasons and silently wishes the attention comes their way.

-A good friend is not someone who pretends to care about you so deeply, yet secretly is envious of you.

Sometimes its sad... and hard to let go of what you thought is a good friendship in your life, but being on your own is a whole lot better than being around a two faced friend. But I have to say again how blessed i am that each time, God will protect me and i will wake up before they destroy my self esteem entirely. With each door i feel the need to close, God has opened up a window or two for me, even if it's not a whole door, the windows are enough to bring sunlight into my darkened life. Alhamdulillah. Amin.

I dont know why I felt the need to write this blog today... but i am sure it's fated that i wrote it. Insyaallah... the truth will come out...